Ramblings Archive March 2010

March 25, 2010

Yesterday I finished touching up the new paint in my kitchen.  I also baked a birthday supper for my son, Kelsey, who turned 30!   It was a wonderful day and it was also full of memories.

 

The kitchen was a huge issue with me and my first husband.  He didn’t like to do anything half way.  As a result we lived with virtually no kitchen for quite a few  years.  We were waiting until we could have the ultimate kitchen with a Jen-air downdraft stove, a Corion counter etc. etc. etc.   Then we partially finished the kitchen and for years, I had open cupboards and a big counter but no walls.  How I hated seeing studs, insulation and wiring.  At one point, I covered the worst patches with mat board. I pretty much just had to put up with it because  I didn't want to risk a big kafuffle. Eventually we divorced and my number one priority was to finish the kitchen!  My brother, a great fellow but not a handy man, came to visit for a week.  “David,” I said, “ I am desperate to get walls in this kitchen. Will you help me?”  Two novices, we spent the week together installing gyprock, cutting and fitting mouldings and painting. David was so impressed when I went out to the framing saw and cut the mouldings on all the right angles. ( My skill in cutting picture frames paid off.)   I’m still grateful for that visit of Dave’s.  After he left, one of my very handy buddies, Janice, came and helped me install some cupboards.  I remember that day too as we lugged and shouldered cupboards into place- just us two women!  Then I hired a carpenter for a couple of days to hang the new cupboard doors.  After more than twenty years in this house, I finally had a kitchen that was finished. 

 

Ten years ago, Dave and I painted my kitchen walls a deep burgundy.  I loved this colour for quite a few years. Suddenly this year, the dark red seemed to claustrophobic and unfriendly. For three days, I stewed about what colour I would paint the walls.  Day and night I envisioned different colour schemes.  On the way to the paint store, to pick out the colour, I changed my mind from a mid tone green to cream.  Three days of thought and I ended up with cream!!!

 

Last night I lay in bed thinking about my new cream kitchen.  I remembered my Grandma’s kitchen.  I remember it as just the same colour as mine.  Hers was a tiny kitchen in a small wartime house.  Not many cupboards, very little counter and yet it was the hub of the house. Together, she and I baked cookies. Of course she would also have several cookie tins already filled, usually one of Empire Cookies and one of Hermits.   Empire Cookies were little decorated shortbread sandwiches, filled with strawberry jam. The cookies were topped with white icing and had a bit of red candied cherry in the middle.  Hermits were a little lumpy brown spicey cookie with a date filling.

 

 When there was just Grandma, Grandpa and me, we ate in the kitchen at the gray arborite table. Our chairs were chrome with a cushy red plastic seats.  Breakfast was my favourite.  We started with orange juice, followed by a small bowl of porridge, with brown sugar and milk and a few raisins.  Then we had bacon and eggs and toast.  Often there would be sliced tomatoes on the plate.  The toast was  made in a little two sided toaster with a soft stripped red and black cord. The  sides of the toaster flopped down, to load the bread in and to turn it over to cook the second side.  No timer here, you just kept an eye on it. I remember when I was older, my grandparents had a new automatic toaster with a super spring.  The toast flew right out of it when it was cooked.  The toast at my Grandma and Grandpa’s tasted much better than the margarine coated toast at my house.  This toast had real butter on it and homemade marmalade was always available.

 

 Lunch time was always soup and a sandwich (cheese or ham with a little lettuce).  My grandma was as modern as my mother and the soup was Campbell’s and the bread was white store made.  My grandma was also a master of Jell-O.  For desert at lunchtime, there was always Jell-O, sometimes with mandarin oranges in it, sometimes with a daub of cream on top.

 

Years later when I was visiting my Grandparents with two tiny children, Danica who was two got her first taste of Jell-O.  She announced to the table “There are no bones in Jell-O.” We all laughed and this statement has continued to be a favourite family line.  We found it funny for two reasons. First of all, we  realized that we were always warning her to watch out for bones in things and now this had  become a big matter of importance her life.  It was also funny because Jell-O does indeed have bones in it since that is what gelatine is made from!

 

 

Supper at my Grandma’s was always meat and mashed potatoes and canned vegetables or turnip or carrots.  Often for desert at supper, we’d have a little ice-cream or a tiny bowl of canned fruit salad and usually a cookie.  My Grandma did all the cooking for almost sixty years.  It was her job.  My Grandpa worked out side of the home and my Grandma worked inside the home.  They were an amazing couple, my Grandparents.   When my Grandma became old and unable to cook, my Grandpa, who was five years older than her, took on the cooking and her care. He always said, “Mom (or sometime he called her Lil) cooked for me for all those years. Now, it’s my turn.”

 

When I was a kid visiting my Grandparents, our day always ended at the kitchen table playing euchre. We loved playing cards together.  My grandparents usually played crib every evening but when I was there we had enough players for euchre.  My grandfather (Jack, my Grandma called him) would usually put out a few card playing candies; hard left over Christmas candies, flat butterscotches, round white mints or sometimes his own homemade peanut brittle or sponge toffee.

 

Now fifty years later, in my new cream kitchen, I have the memories of all those happy days of my childhood, as well as  the current happiness of a new wonderful husband of almost four years.  Jim had no idea of the history he inherited when he married me and moved into my house in Portaupique.  Luckily he’s a patient fellow.  Gradually we are making this house, our house.  It feels good. 

 

February 25, 2010

I’m having an exciting time in the studio playing with acrylics and oils.  I love the oils.  They’re bold and buttery and it’s just pure fun.  However since my winter studio is very close to the bedroom, the smell is too invasive.  Also since I’d love to be able to work outside in the summer, I want to work be able to work in acrylics, just because they dry quickly.  The acrylics are a challenge.  Yesterday I spent the day working on a glorious sky. When it was dry, I put some details over the top.  The details weren’t just perfect so I tried to lift them with a little damp tissue.  OOPS  off came all the sky right back to the pink underpainting!  Today I did a test of the six different brands of acrylic paints that I happen to have. Several lifted when dry.  I now have to figure out if this is a brand problem or is related to individual colours.

It is always great fun to learn new stuff. 

Early Morning Halifax_em

Last week, Jim and I were in Halifax for a couple of days.  Early one morning I saw this view up Quinpool Road.  I’m sure that this small painting will gradually morph into a large work at some point.


 

Joy's Starry Night Shirt

This afternoon, my daughter Danica dropped in to bake one of her polymer clay masks in my oven. Last week,  I had bought an additive so that you can use acrylics on fabric.   Danica and I spent the rest of the day each painting a shirt!  It was so much fun!  Tomorrow the two of us are taking in a workshop in Truro on Tissue Paper Collage, and earlier this week, I was dying wool to start a new mat and collecting silk bits to do something glorious on an antique chair that I’ve just acquired. This is exactly why I needed to stay tucked in the studio this winter instead of happily traipsing around South America.  I needed some time to just play at being creative.

February 24, 2010

Scribbling about dying

I love to get my money’s worth. Maybe it’s having parents that lived through the depression and the second world war.  I grew up with stories; When my Mom ate an apple during the depression all the neighborhood kids would gather around and beg for the core! She also said that on Christmas morning, it was huge treat to get an orange in the toe of your stocking. I couldn’t never imagine that getting an orange to eat would be a Christmas treat.  My Mom tried to shovel an orange into us every day because they were so healthy.

 

My getting value for dollars could also have come from me being an artist with a family to support.  Now that’s a big problem. First of all it’s hard enough to support yourself as an artist, then tack on some kids and it’s pretty well impossible.

 

In any event, I am not tight, or cheap but I am very choosey about what I spend.  I love to spend my money on stuff that I love; books, art supplies, marvelous works of art. I remember well, twenty-five years ago, buying an incredible hand made coat for $ 500.  My ninety year old friend, Rachel, had seen it modeled in a Women’s Institute fashion show. The next time I visited, she told me that she had seen a coat that I would love. The Nova Scotia government had commissioned an artist to make a special coat for Princess Margaret.  The artist made two coats; a short one in blues and a long one in pinks.  The government chose the short one and lucky for me I was exactly Princess Margaret’s size and I bought the pink one.  And then there was the time, I wanted to buy a enormous house in Great Village, because it came with hand painted Limoges door knobs, a bathroom covered in Delft tiles and a great story.  I didn’t however want the ten car garage, or the twenty by forty foot dinning room or the maids quarters, and I didn’t have the $ 125,000 for a great story.  So I do love to spend money on amazing things.  I am less than happy to replace tea towels, socks or to spend money to eat fast food or stay in generic motels.

 

Three years ago, I  married a new husband.  Although he knew what it was like not to have a lot of money, he loves new tea towels, socks that match and don’t have holes, fast food joints and motels. I admit not minding when new tea towels just show up in the kitchen. Anyways,  when we decided to marry, my prince charming, left all the wedding arrangements to me.  I bought a fantastic handmade long sleeved white nightie (lace with a white satin lining), on sale for $25 instead of $ 125 and then we invited all of our friends to a pot luck supper and surprised them with the wedding. It was fun, easy and cheap and we loved every minute of the wedding.  When we went back packing for our honeymoon, I took along my wedding dress nightie!

 

Recently I received a renewal for my term life insurance, and got back some health tests that are somewhat problematic.  Also my 60th

birthday is coming up in June. I’m at that time in my life; the thinking about dying time.  I’m beginning to really begrudge the $80 a month, I spend on term life insurance.  It seemed a necessity when I was raising young children.  Now it seems like a wasteful luxury.  However, if I cancel it, I’m sure with my health history that I will pop off immediately and loose all those years and years of paying.  If I don’t stop, it will probably mean that I’ll live to at least 70 when the policy ends and I will have lost fifty years of payments!

 

The other conundrum is how to handle the actual dying rituals.  I don’t like the thought of expensive, black suited strangers painting me up and stuffing me into new clothes.  I don’t want to be snuck into an “attractive” funeral parlour or a church, so that it’s easy for everyone to just show up, say goodbye and carry on with their lives.  Of course, I want my departing to be doable, legal and not a huge hassle for my friends and family but I also want it to be inexpensive, meaningful and to reflex the way I’ve lived my life. 

 

Several questions need answers. I have a great friend who’s also my doctor, so I can get a death certificate.  Is that all I need to establish my change of status?  How quickly does the body “set up”, “go stiff” and if it’s ridged, how do you stuff the body into clean clothes?

 My wonderful friends; Laurie, Serena and Janice are signed up for this committee.   I am quite relieved that recently I decided it was worthwhile to spend money on new underwear.  Luckily all the gray drooping underclothes are in the garbage and my mother would be pleased that I’m now okay in that department. If I don’t die in the next ten years though, I may be back to drooping gray undies.  And I’m not a small woman. When I tried to get back into the boat after swimming in the jungle with dolphins , I was like  a beached whale.  When I tried to get up onto a horse in the Pantenal, the poor cowboy under me pushing from below was a sight to see.  And these were times when I was alive and trying to help move myself.  How will it work when I’m a meat puppet?  And how long does it take for bodies to start smelling?.  I don’t want the pickling and the makeup. Just add a little blue oil paint to my face, put a paint brush in my hand and pop me in a handmade box. 

 

My son recently built an amazing ice fishing hut.  Kelsey, you’re signed up for box building and if your truck is long enough would you please also do any necessary deliveries? Chris, if you are here, you can do the seasonal bouquets!  The rest of you can sign up for digging or cooking and I‘d love to have little speeches from all of you at the party.  My darling Jim will MC and purchase the booze on my behalf.   If I die at home, is there a way, I can just stay at home for the party? A day to organize and box build, dig and cook and then a house full of people, a few kind words, a quick trip across the marsh to pop the box in the ground and then everyone returns to the house for good food and drink, lots of laughter and crying; time to celebrate a life lived, and  time to mourn a loved one lost.